My dad died today.
Typing that really sucks. But it's true. And my heart won't stop aching.
I keep trying to force myself to sleep. I tell myself that it'll all be better in the morning. But that's a lie. It won't be. Sleep won't bring my dad back.
So instead I sit here holding my baby. Crying. And wishing so badly that I could just have one more day. Just one! So that I could tell him what a beautiful person he is. And how he helped mold me into something better. He helped me learn my true potential. And he was always my number one fan. He taught me that is was okay to be me... And that it's okay for them to be...well... Them. He taught me to love others, regardless of how they treated me. And possibly, most importantly, he taught me to have fierce love for our Savior.
He'll be missed by me everyday.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Goal for the week
My goal for this week is to clean out every closet and make sure nothing is on the floors. I am certain I'll actually accomplish this goal because...well...I have to! We're getting new floors put in this week. Yay! No more gross carpet.
So tell me...What's your goal for the week?
(Also, a little heads up. Posting might be a little sparse this week. Poor baby E is sick. She has a fever and is just completely miserable (she just cuddles me and moans all day long...break my heart)...Forgive me?)
Friday, February 17, 2012
week in instagrams (week two)
1. went shopping with the sista 2. el got her ears pierced (!!!!) and was so happy 3. So excited at church in the dress from grami 4. post partum hairloss regrowth rocks 5. el is getting sillier 6. happy girl in her valentines headband from her cousins 7. tyler tried a back stretcher...at...work? 8. el dressed up in her giants gear to surprise tyler.
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Thursday, February 16, 2012
Thursday Freebie- "I can do hard things" Printable
Over this past year, I have read a lot of blogs who have "I can do hard things" as their mantra (it came from some sort of talk, but I don't know which one. hah, sorry!)
Each time I saw people repeat that phrase, in my head I was like "well...duh"
I know. I'm kind of mean in my head sometimes. But, I'm working on it, okay?
So anyway...I never really thought much about it.
That is, until recently when I realized that I'm just kind of coasting through life. I never really challenge myself to do anything. And, life way getting very very mundane...Actually repetitive.
wake up.
feed El. cuddle El. naptime for El (insert everything for El right here)
eat.
do a little blog design.
cuddle Tyler.
repeat.
While I love the fact that I'm El's mama, it suddenly hit me that in order for me to be happy with my life as whole...I needed to work on myself. I needed to develop new talents, remember my old talents, and...Well...Just be more like me and not just a mom. I needed to do something hard for me, so that I had something personal to be proud of.
Fast forward to a few weeks ago when my friend and I decided to sign up for some classes at the local gym. The classes were fun, but one in particular was hard. Really hard.
My friend and I looked at each other like "Whoa, we can't do this!" and bolted out of there.
On the car ride home, we promised each other that we'd never ever go back to that class. It was just too hard.
When I got home, I was pretty bummed.
All of the other classed at the gym were in the morning at times I didn't even know existed, or at times when I had no one to watch the Ellabelle. Clearly none of those were going to work.
I tried to talk myself into just doing a video at home, when suddenly that phrase popped into my head.
"I can do hard things".
Of course, me, being the negative Nancy that I am, was like "Uhh, no I can't..." then more like "...Well maybe I can? But NOT that class. I could never do that class. That is way too hard."
I was literally having a conversation in my head.
It was so weird. The evil side kept being like "YES YOU CAN ERIKA! YOU CAN DO HARD THINGS! DO YOU WANT TO KEEP LIVING THE SAME OLD LIFE YOU ARE LIVING RIGHT NOW AND NEVER CHALLENGE YOURSELF? NEVER BETTER YOURSELF? DO YOU WANT TO JUST SETTLE RIGHT NOW, WITH THE PERSON YOU ARE?" end of caps lock.
Talk about annoying. Especially since that little voice was right.
I needed to challenge myself. I needed to do this for myself...To prove to myself that I can, in fact, do hard things.
So, I stepped foot in that classroom again. I wanted to run when I saw the teacher and felt how hot and humid the room was. But, in my head, I was cheesy and said "I can do hard things"...And guess what? I did! I did a hard thing! I stayed the whole class.
I was super woman.
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Each time I saw people repeat that phrase, in my head I was like "well...duh"
I know. I'm kind of mean in my head sometimes. But, I'm working on it, okay?
So anyway...I never really thought much about it.
That is, until recently when I realized that I'm just kind of coasting through life. I never really challenge myself to do anything. And, life way getting very very mundane...Actually repetitive.
wake up.
feed El. cuddle El. naptime for El (insert everything for El right here)
eat.
do a little blog design.
cuddle Tyler.
repeat.
While I love the fact that I'm El's mama, it suddenly hit me that in order for me to be happy with my life as whole...I needed to work on myself. I needed to develop new talents, remember my old talents, and...Well...Just be more like me and not just a mom. I needed to do something hard for me, so that I had something personal to be proud of.
Fast forward to a few weeks ago when my friend and I decided to sign up for some classes at the local gym. The classes were fun, but one in particular was hard. Really hard.
My friend and I looked at each other like "Whoa, we can't do this!" and bolted out of there.
On the car ride home, we promised each other that we'd never ever go back to that class. It was just too hard.
When I got home, I was pretty bummed.
All of the other classed at the gym were in the morning at times I didn't even know existed, or at times when I had no one to watch the Ellabelle. Clearly none of those were going to work.
I tried to talk myself into just doing a video at home, when suddenly that phrase popped into my head.
"I can do hard things".
Of course, me, being the negative Nancy that I am, was like "Uhh, no I can't..." then more like "...Well maybe I can? But NOT that class. I could never do that class. That is way too hard."
I was literally having a conversation in my head.
It was so weird. The evil side kept being like "YES YOU CAN ERIKA! YOU CAN DO HARD THINGS! DO YOU WANT TO KEEP LIVING THE SAME OLD LIFE YOU ARE LIVING RIGHT NOW AND NEVER CHALLENGE YOURSELF? NEVER BETTER YOURSELF? DO YOU WANT TO JUST SETTLE RIGHT NOW, WITH THE PERSON YOU ARE?" end of caps lock.
Talk about annoying. Especially since that little voice was right.
I needed to challenge myself. I needed to do this for myself...To prove to myself that I can, in fact, do hard things.
So, I stepped foot in that classroom again. I wanted to run when I saw the teacher and felt how hot and humid the room was. But, in my head, I was cheesy and said "I can do hard things"...And guess what? I did! I did a hard thing! I stayed the whole class.
I was super woman.
Here's a little prinatable I drew for you. Because you know what? YOU can do hard things, too! Just click the links below for the color you like and it'll take you to the download page (print up to size 8x10 for best results).
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Have you ever gone clothes shopping and realized that everything in your arms are the same color?
It happens to me all the time. And, it's nuts!
I find myself gravitating to certain colors and color combinations through clothing, blog design, and even things on Pinterest.
My color crush right now is definitely coral and mint, though. Not necessarily together, but I totally think both colors are so great.
Whats your color crush this week?
It happens to me all the time. And, it's nuts!
I find myself gravitating to certain colors and color combinations through clothing, blog design, and even things on Pinterest.
My color crush right now is definitely coral and mint, though. Not necessarily together, but I totally think both colors are so great.
1 print 2 shirt 3 nail polish (tarte deco & mint candy apple) 4 necklace 5 earrings 6 lipstick (vegas volt). 7 pants
Whats your color crush this week?
Monday, February 13, 2012
We cleaned the garage!
On Thursday I cleaned out the garage. This was HUGE for me, because of the previous mouse issue.
I literally kicked things three times before I dared to touch them with my hands (in case a mouse was hiding out), and held my breath as I picked things up. It was intense.
Luckily, there were no mice to be found (thanks to Tyler, the mighty mouse hunter) and our garage finally fits two cars in it again. whoop whoop.
But! That's not the best part. The best part was my cute little helper girl.
Is she not to die for? Ahh.
I literally kicked things three times before I dared to touch them with my hands (in case a mouse was hiding out), and held my breath as I picked things up. It was intense.
Luckily, there were no mice to be found (thanks to Tyler, the mighty mouse hunter) and our garage finally fits two cars in it again. whoop whoop.
But! That's not the best part. The best part was my cute little helper girl.
Is she not to die for? Ahh.
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